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Jackie Aspden Oct 17th 2016, 11:33am |
I have struggled for years if not most of my life with the feelings of not fitting properly within society. Had no idea why as access to the mass of information available today just did not exist. I always assumed that my interest in the female form was normal for a pubescent teenager or adult male even though I avoided being one of the boys and tended to be a loner. Lived in my own naive bubble, even through University in the Sixties unaware of gender issues, homosexuality etc. Years later started crossdressing in the privacy of my own home - felt good and disgraceful as if the two apparent sides of my personality clashed. Finally decided to accept that I feel I am in the wrong body and start doing something about it. It’s going to be a tough emotional journey having thrown myself into work, hobbies, sport, anything to blot out the conflict in my mind. So far have had loads of support and there is so much to learn and cope with. Sorry if you are shocked, disappointed, confused— you are experiencing a little of my feelings. Last edited Oct 17th 2016, 11:33am by Jackie Aspden |
John Houlihan Moderator Nov 9th 2016, 1:27pm |
Great to see you at the weekend Jackie and we look forward to seeing you at more events again. All the best John Houlihan |
Tony Brand-Barker Moderator Nov 9th 2016, 3:07pm |
Good to meet you at the weekend. Even though you have obviously been involved with the sport and BMBO for a good number of years we never seemed to have crossed paths. Hope to see you out on the bike in 2017! Tony |
Jackie Aspden Nov 9th 2016, 8:56pm |
Thanks to you both for the comments above and to all at the AGM for my reception. As you may imagine it has been a tumultuous few months since "coming out" in June and I had grave doubts about attending. Should have known that my reception would be fine as I have yet to meet anyone in the sport I would not wish to be a friend.Regards Jackie |
Steve Willis Nov 21st 2016, 1:44pm |
Sorry for the late response but I've logged onto the Forum for the first time in months due to John Houlihan's reminder. |
Jackie Aspden Nov 22nd 2016, 11:44pm |
Thanks Steve - will be in touch directly - can't do the December NYMBO as am leading a RSF family ride. John no doubt will be able to enlighten you on our discussions re policy. |
Jackie Aspden Oct 10th 2017, 9:07pm |
Almost a year on and a steep learning curve. My testosterone levels have been below 1 for twelve months..Wild mood swings but overall much happier. Have had to accept diminished strength, stamina and self confidence resulting in some avoidance of events and silly mistakes. Beginning to get accustomed to the hurt and started training to try to limit the effects. |
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